Monday, November 17, 2014

Gratitude is a memory of the heart. 

“Life should not be this hard” used to be my mantra.  Then I realized if I am busy being grateful for what I have, I don’t have time to think about what I don’t have.  I also began to wonder what God was asking of me in these trials.

Raising a son with special needs  has been overwhelming at times.  I was envious of others who had children that sailed through school and life.  Eventually I learned that God wastes nothing and would use everything we were experiencing for good.  God has chosen me to be Eric’s mom for a purpose and I needed to share our journey with others.

 Our circumstances may remain the same but gratitude opens our hearts to God’s presence and His peace.  

“Do all things without complaining and disputing.”  Philippians       2:14

   Lord when things are difficult help me to look for the Blessing I might be missing.

Friday, November 14, 2014



“And whoever gives these little ones only a cup of cold water in the name of a disciple, assuredly, I say to you, he shall by no means lose his reward.”  Matthew 10:42 (NKJV)

The recent tragic death of 6 year old London McCabe has left me and many others with a heavy heart. I felt called to write about the senseless loss of this sweet, Autistic boy who loved stuffed animals and big hats.  I did not want this to be just another blip in the news.  A society is judged by the way they treat their children and animals. What does it say about us when the news constantly bombards with celebrities and forgets these little ones?

 Although I am not condoning what she did, Jillian McCabe was suffering with mental illness herself.  She spent 2 years battling the system to get her son help and everyone failed her.  She felt overwhelmed with nowhere else to turn.   

 I was watching Dr. Drew the night after this happened, and a psychologist on his panel also had a child with special needs. She shared that even as a medical professional it was difficult to navigate the system. I was not surprised; I have been trying for 30 years to get my son the assistance he needs.  It has been an arduous and convoluted process that would try the patience of Job. Others have commented that my son was fortunate to have me to fight for him; I felt that was a given.   Yet, friends who are special education teachers have said sometimes the parents are lower functioning than the child. 

The current mental health and special education systems are failing the most at risk children and their families. These kids need to have someone in their corner otherwise they or their families will continue to lash out.  We have seen this with the Newtown shootings and now this most recent tragedy. We need to help our disabled children sooner so they can become productive members of society.    I understand the system is inundated but as with other agencies it needs to be overhauled and a stepwise chronic care model put in place.

The world often rejects these children but God never does. We need to realize we are all connected and when one suffers we all suffer. We need to understand that stigma kills and not talking about it does not make it go away.   We need to reach a place of acceptance where we see others with disabilities not through our eyes, but God’s.    We need to listen to them. We must be their voice. Maybe one person alone cannot make a difference but collectively we can.  Please share this. 


Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed, citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.”
Margaret Mead

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Yesterday had an epiphany watching Joyce Meyer.  She said people will not understand you if they don't know God because God is working through you. That is why I believe that when I was younger no one expected great things from me because they were only looking at my limitations and past behaviors.  They didn't realize what God could do through me. I believe the same is true with special needs children, others don't realize what God can do through them.  God sees what we can be if we keep our eyes on him.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Mother's Day

We all know our most impactful role in life is that of a mother, yet it is great to be reminded. I was blessed to receive this from my publishing company.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

A Mother's Fight, A Faithful God

Do you feel like you are struggling alone to raise a special needs child? Although the world does not always value these children, God does. In my recently published book I recount the many battles I fought with God’s Grace to obtain the help my son needed. It is my hope this forum will give others who are traveling this road a place to share. To find out more about my book please go to my website